let it go.......

So I was reading another blog today and I literally felt like this person was writing exactly what I was thinking...if I were to have written it...it might have gone something like this...

Feeling very well provided for in life, however, feeling a responsibility to the little guy to provide that sibling. Hmmm you say...sounds easy enough! Not so quick....it took us 7 years, tons of blood, sweat and tears and a huge amount of dough to get where we are today. Not an option right now as me and my better half were heavily compensated in the real estate market in Florida. Geez..we all know that our life has changed drastically. At the end of the day what this boils down to is simply wanting the the best for my little guy. Pretty much , as most little girls do, I had a vision of being a stay home mom of those 2.4 children. Ya know...being average. As much as it that sounds good, the big guy has his own plans and these things are some times not within our control. Simply put.....I am a planner and a do'er and a control freak and let's face it...... things don't usually end up the way I plan for them to. I know that my little guy enjoys his life and we spend 24/7 making sure that he is the happiest child possible. We overcompensate, we kiss and hug and love on him and tell him how much we love him to the point of probably annoying him. It is as simple as this...we want him to KNOW...really KNOW how loved and important he is! No, I am not the stay at home mom of 2.4 children. It seems every where I go I am the only working mommy. It is like I am being stalked by SAHM's...(of 2.4 kids)..makes it hard to feel good about dropping my little boy off at school each day and certainly worse about the no ssibling thing....I need to just get rid of the pity party and realize that I have it good. Stop worrying about what we do not have and get on the train of being thankful for what we do have. Lastly, letting go of things going as planned.